How It Started

my first kiss          
slack lips against  tongues 
saliva sliding until my electric blue 
tube top was wet 

a slick between my white breasts 
so new they ached 
                      with being born 
          a kiss like a fight 

            me on top 
during recess   in the lawn in the middle of  school 
not caring        if anyone saw not caring 
          if the principal came and tore me off him 
everything gone warm and black

             tongues wiggling 
                  fast as slugs on speed 
I ground against him trying to feel 

            rubbing   so hard    he whimpered in pain 
grinding to grind out the burning between my legs 
the strangest I'd ever felt and
I couldn't stop      I couldn't      I held him down